BURNT

I'm back bitches and this chapter of motherhood is titled BURNT!

Motherhood right now for for me is...Burn out. As a fiercely creative woman with HUGE DREAMS, many hats and more motivation than Tony Robbins... motherhood quite literally has floored me at this point. And forget the Karen's! I'm a real life, walking....NEGATIVE NANCY.

I'm admitting defeat for a minute... to give you this burnt chapter of my life!!!!

It's all of the following:

Days of Burnt toast

Evenings of Burnt dinners

Professional Burn out Small Business Burn out

Social Media Burn out

Lots of Burnt friendships

Terribly Burnt immune systems

Burnt relationships at times

Burnt time - there is NO TIME!!!!!

Burnt bridges due to sickness

Burning the candle at both ends My god I hope you can relate to this stage of my life...

Let me elaborate...

It's starting a new job without sick leave, taking a step down from an amazing leadership position to go on maternity leave and then return to teach a full load with insane amounts of classes and supers. It's then being sick as a dog every second week with Stormy in daycare 5 days a week. Therefore paying daycare and receiving leave without pay... with the rise of mortgages and blueberries (Stormy is costing me $30 a week on FARKIN BLUEBERRIES!)

Its opening a pop up bricks and mortar baby clothing and gift store at the end of last year to tick an item off my bucket list, only to get two bouts of food poisoning, another round of Covid and about 3 common colds in the space of 3 months!!! Did I mention we got hand and foot and mouth!

It's planning and being invited to amazing outings, birthdays and trips only to cancel last minute because Stormy has another fever or trip to the doctors. Or actually finally going on a family vacay and waking up at 3am with projectile vomit whilst dying in bed for two days... Like how did I piss off the universe!

It's making a beautiful pasta dish the other night and popping it in the oven to keep it warm. By the time I fed stormy, cleaned him up, bathed him and put him to bed, I got down stairs to a dish that was over overcooked, dry and sloppy! I literally yelled "oh for FARK'S sake". Irony really... that dish summed me up perfectly... I'm Cooked... overdone and my skin is dry haha

And look if you don't laugh you'll cry but still YOU'LL CRY.... ALOT!!! You cry because your baby is actually sleeping now but your not! It's having 3 hours of motherhood to do with Stormy before going to your real full- time job, to come home and do another 3 hours with him and then work on my small business until I'm too tired to function again.

You cry because you don't know why your crying you just want a minute to pee but you have a little one at your feet saying mummy, mummy, mummy! Or a kid at school saying miss can I talk to you about something, in your only 20 min lunch time. You cry because you haven't seen your friends in forever but you also cry because you don't want to go as your so exhausted all you want to do is lay down and rest.

It's putting on 15kg of weight full of stress, takeaway, lack of sleep, sickness and pure survival. And sure I will bounce back - mark my words I will... whether I have to waddle my fat arse back to the top of the world I WILL get there. There will be a redemption story!

But since Stormy started day care or since giving birth really - I am a burnt out mess!

NEVER in my life have I been a quitter and I have an incredible baby so I'll bounce back like a wrecking ball soon enough with more motivation, less kgs and probably another kid... but for April 2023 I'm not writing back to your text messages as I'm BURNT OUT and quite frankly a little frazzled!

So if you need some inspo for tonight's dinner... I'm recommending a plate of burnt butter sage gnocchi HAHAHAHA actually just get takeaway mamas!

Question for you

So let's start the conversation... What are you burning at the moment?

Till next time - that's me signing off hopefully for the last time as NEGATIVE NANCY... LOL Stormy & Me xx Ps... as always tell me what you think below.